Meditation

Thursday, March 27.  Snow again in Michigan.  As I started my 6pm lesson, it started to snow and still hasn't stopped.  Maybe 4 inches or so.  But big pretty snowflakes, and unlike in years past, I realized how pretty it is when it snows, and the snow covers the tree branches.  But it is almost April and c'mon now, we're ready for some warm weather, sunshine, and golf!

Today's new thing was during an hour break I had in my schedule.  I had experienced something I hadn't in almost two months today, negative feelings.  Anger, jealousy, judgment, sadness.  And it made me feel awful inside.  I at first just tried to be with those feelings and let myself feel them.  i went to run and ran angry (which kind of helps, actually).  But the feelings kind of persisted through the day, not as intensely, but enough to keep me feeling not so great.  So during my hour break, I decided to go into my car, turn on the engine and heat, and just meditate.  I focused on my breathing, let the thoughts come as they wanted, knowing that sooner or later they would go away.  It calmed me down greatly.  I was proud of myself for not reacting the same old way...calling everybody with my drama and making it bigger than it was.

Nope, I handled it on my own and now feel the positive energy back in me.  And I'm very proud of myself for being aware enough to go there.  I didn't get lost in my head and thoughts.  I let myself feel what I felt, and breathed myself right back to the present moment.  I really have come a long way in a couple of months, haven't I?

Getting late, so I'll sign off for now and talk to you all tomorrow.  Love to you all.  Peace and wishes for a good day.  I'm excited for tomorrow and know that something good is gonna happen to me tomorrow!  Later.