Saturday, February 23. Today was good. Taught more lessons. It's getting busier. Saw some old students and caught up a little. Took a nap and had a frightful but maybe telling dream. Went to run at the gym. I ran for a full half and hour today, and at a greater speed. I'll get to where I need to be by March 30 in Chicago. A good busy day. Only moments of unease.
My new thing for the day was to go tanning. I know it's not great for my skin but I think I have seasonal depression. Living in Michigan, winters are long, cold, and grey, and that doesn't help my mood so I thought some tanning might improve my mood. It was interesting. Only 5 minutes, but it was warm and bright and felt good. I think I will continue. And I like the way I look when I'm a little tan. A little healthier looking and feeling.
So far, I've managed to keep to my task. Something new everyday. Tonight and tomorrow I take on a bigger task, charcoal drawing. Several things come into play with this task. One, getting over the insecurity of knowing that I'm not a "good" artist. Judgment. Who cares, right? So if I can get over trying to be "good," I might reap other benefits with other things. No fears, baby!
The second thing is my subject matter. Bob wants me to draw pictures of images and ideas that create the most anxiety and fear in me. I am apprehensive. But I can see the bigger picture, and if I can draw the images, and continue to draw them, I figure they'll lose their negative emotional charge, and it will help me move forward with my mind.
This one is going to take some courage in many regards. I am up to it though! I will post (maybe) my drawings in tomorrow's entry. Here goes nothing!
Thanks and I love you all and your support, once again.
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