Matching up

Thursday, February 7.  Hey all!  Today was a good day.  Joined a club, Gold's Gym near home.  Gold's has changed quite a bit!  No hardcore pumping iron feel anymore.  There's still the big dudes trying to get bigger, but like some of the newer clubs there's now classes, a juice bar, saunas and lockers.  Cool.  I ran for about 20 minutes today in my training for my race in Chicago in March.  It's amazing how much your endurance goes when you don't keep up!  Anyway, I should be ready for the race and I plan to run everyday.  I hope to finish in a respectable time.

My new thing for the day was creating a profile on Match.com.  As a single man, sooner or later it'll be time to move forward.  Never done it online though!  It was hard.  Hard to put myself out there and expose myself.  Insecurities about everything flare up.  The horror of having no one respond to my profile!  The horror of no one liking me!  What am I 14 years old?

It was also difficult because I think I know that I'm not quite ready yet.  Ready for getting to know people and have fun, but not quite ready for a relationship.  Having Paula on my mind as much as I do tells me that.  It probably wouldn't be quite fair to anyone who is potentially interested.  As long as I'm honest with myself and whomever I might meet, however, I think it's ok.

And what the hell, I could meet someone great, right?

My insecurities have already been assuaged...two women have "winked" at me, which I guess means that they are interested in some way.  Cool!  We'll see where this goes.  It's all about new things, right?  Bye for now...