Receiving the gifts life sends my way

Tuesday, February 12.  Hello all.  Although I know I have readers, some loyal daily readers, sometimes I still feel like I'm talking to myself.  And although this format is one designed to share, I suppose it's just a journal in a sense.

I believe that if your intent is there, life and the universe will provide anything and everything you need.  Sometimes, like now for me, it's just that we don't look carefully enough to see what life offers.  Today, I decided to look.

What I found is that 10 years of teaching have given me many opportunities to improve myself and pursue my dreams, outside of golf even.  Today it gave me Mike.  I first started teaching Mike's son Brennan about a year ago and Mike about six months ago.  Mike is the owner of his own commercial real estate development company and very successful.  Because one of the interests I have developed in the last year has been real estate, I decided to see if he could help me in any way.

We met and in addition to offering much useful advice, he offered me a chance to work on his next project.  A learning opportunity.  He also said he would be open to being a business partner.  In a week full (and maybe a lifetime full) of feeling closed off to the world, finally a chance to engage in the world.  Life will help if I am open to it.

And maybe most importantly, a choice by me is what really created the expansion, as choices by me recently have created contraction.  So what is today's new thing?  I guess I'd describe it as asking life for help.  Or being open to positivity and opportunity.  I'm not sure that it's something I've never done, but it feels new enough for me to have it count.

On a side note about me and how I'm doing, I think it's time for me to acknowledge that there is unhappiness, sadness, and fear in me.  In an effort to be positive about life, I think I've too often neglected to feel what I really feel at any given moment.  Acceptance of life and what happens starts with acceptance of who I am and how I feel at every given moment first.  Not the other way around.  Right now, much grief exists in me.  

I know it lacks perspective and is dramatic, I also know that it is only temporary and life and the universe has great things in store for me.  I know it, no matter how much negativity there is at the present.