Sunday, February 24. Today was another good day. I had a lot of energy at work and connected with people well. Met a couple of new students and that's always nice. Also did a strength/flexibility test for golf that showed my strengths and weaknesses. I now have a program to improve on those areas that could make my golf better. Again walked the dog and went for a run. There is a dullness sometimes to a daily routine but also a peace to it. I am more present with all of the things I'm doing, new and old.
Today's new thing really started last night and continued today. I made some charcoal drawings. Not just any. At the suggestion of therapist Bob, I drew pictures of images and scenes that are currently creating the most anxiety and negativity in me. The idea is that as I draw, and continue to draw similar images, the ideas lose their negative charge, thereby allowing me to accept. To often, we shy away from those things in our head that scare us or make us upset. As with the poetry, I am diving headfirst into it.
By far, drawing has been my biggest challenge. Not only is the content very personal and panic producing, the process has taught me a little about myself. Not only was I afraid to draw what was on my mind, I was afraid that I wouldn't be "good" at it. So I discovered how judgmental I am of myself, which of course means I'm judgmental of others.
A very revealing process. And it ended up being kind of fun. I may take a drawing class. Because although I don't care how good I am, I'd like to learn anyway!
So there are three drawings. Without getting into too much detail, one shows the fear of being forgotten, one shows the emptiness of not being chosen or being good enough, and the last shows the sadness of being abandoned.
Enough said. I'll see you guys tomorrow. Love.
1 comment:
Nice drawing, very artistic. I think it doesn't has to come out that beautiful or perfect, your drawing looks sincere and relax..that's kool.
I've already been searching for and talked to some guy about the hat and got couple of numbers in my hand. One of the guy i asked, he's doing a leather products opposite to my shop in JJ Market. He has a leather cowboy hat in his shop so i approached about the hat and he told me to show him a pic and he'll go ahead and make the sample one for me...Do you want me to do that? Which pics should i show him? Which one do you prefer, the pic of that guy in the golf field?
My E-mail is tinapatw@hotmail.com
Cheers.
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