German and a phone number?

Tuesday, February 19. Hello everyone! Today was pretty uneventful. Went to the airport to pick up Patty from Thailand, hung out at home for a while, then taught some golf. Last night, Dr. Slattery called me and said that it would be ok for me to go back for more therapy about stuff we talked on Friday. Today I called him back because I think it would be good.

As I've talked to all my family and friends less (aren't you relieved?), I think that having a forum for talking about all my struggles would still be good. He touched something in me that I don't quite understand yet, but felt like it was freeing and moving in the right direction.

Today, two new things happened (or to make it more active, I did two new things).  First, I learned to count to 10 in German. Spelling might not be accurate, but here goes:

1 eins 2 zvei 3 drei 4 veir 5 funf (i know, no umlaut) 6 sech 7 siven 8 auct 9 nun 10 zen.

So now I know some Portuguese and some German!

The second thing I did later while having dinner with Tom (another instructor at the Academy) at Appleby's.  We talked a little about work and our individual life challenges.  I told him about my latest drama and the blog, and inspiration hit me so I decided to ask our waitress, Jen, for her phone number.  Just like when I told the woman at Meijer's she was beautiful, it made me  nervous as I called her over.  I noticed, though, that I was a little calmer even though I was doing something a little more daring.  I could, after all, be rejected this time.  So anyway I asked her for her number (and said that she could give me a fake one if she wanted to), and she said ok!  Wow!  Made me feel really good!

Now I know it still could be a fake number and I don't know if I'm going to call or not, but the victory was in asking.  At this point getting over this fear (and others) is making me feel stronger, and I actually think I could handle if it was fake!  So again, something good is happening inside me I think.

And heck, who knows, it might lead to a date or at least a new friend, right?  If Paula's going to pursue this, why not me too?

I feel good guys.  If I continue to do things that challenge me and scare me, there's nothing that I won't be able to handle.  Talk soon and love you all.