Lending a helping hand and fedoras

Monday, February 18.  Today was a day with ebbs and flows.  I felt a lot of positive energy and had a lot of good thoughts at times, and had moments that were full of anxiety too.  A theme seems to be emerging, huh?  Things change and are always in a state of change.  Taking me a long time to learn something pretty obvious it seems.

In the morning I delivered meals to some folks again.  I probably do it every one or two weeks.  Today's route went pretty smoothly until I neared the end of of the route, when a woman asked for some help.  She had a severe tremor and asked me to help fill out some forms for her.  I did, and we sat and talked for a bit before I left.  She mentioned how nice she thought I was and how beautiful my smile was.  It made my day.  So today my first was to help a stranger with an everyday task that she couldn't manage by herself.

It was also reassuring because I still am quite aware of how much I hurt inside.  How everyday is a struggle to keep on keeping on with the heartbreak.  But if someone can see some of the positive that I try to nurture everyday, I must be doing something right.  She thanked me again and said that she hoped that I would do her route again and we could talk again.  I said that would be nice.  I would be more than happy to fill in more forms for her if she needs it!

On a side note, I've continued to get more compliments on the fedora I'm wearing, and I am going to explore the idea of starting a company.  Fedoras, baseball caps, English style caps, and big floppy fishing or gardening hats.  They all have a market with the business I know, golf, but they also have a cross appeal for the young and hip crowd and the more buttoned down adult crowd.  I think I may have something here!  I'll have to work on a business plan that defines a theme a little more specifically, and try to get some out to those in the spotlight, like professional golfers or musicians.  Hmm.  Seems like the first creative idea I've had in a while.  Must be something good happening!  JOY!  ARE YOU STILL READING?  THIS SEEMS LIKE A NATURAL PLACE WHERE YOU CAN HELP.  BUSINESS PARTNERS?

Observation for the day:  Letting go is challenging because it involves real, true love.  Of yourself and of others.  We hang on for either selfish reasons or for self-hating reasons.  Not good if you really look at it.

Again, love to you all.  Hour by hour, day by day everyone.

P.S. The photo today is one of all of my ideas for things to do.  They are on post it notes on my wall next to my desk.  I'll cross each I do off as I do them.  It kinda makes me feel like I painted my wall!